So far I’ve been able to stick to my eating schedule, although I have to admit, I did some impulse eating today and some of what I ate wasn’t necessarily good for me, but I still managed to keep the calorie and fat count low.
I started the day with some V-8 Fusion light (50 calories) and a slice of raisin bread (80 calories). I usually try not to eat bread because I find that bread fattens me faster than anything; but I was hungry and the bread was the first thing I got my hands on. So for breakfast I consumed 130 calories. Then a bit later I had a serving of 100% white corn tostitos. That brought my total calories to 270. A bit later after having the Tostitos I had 2 servings of whole Okra, 60 calories, bringing my total calories to 330. I then had a half a serving of Honey Bunches of Oats with Vanilla clusters which was approximately 110 calories. So I’ve consumed about 440 calories today, but I’ll call it 500.
As for fat intake, the slice of bread contained 1.5 grams, the Tostitos contained 7 grams, the Okra contained no fat, the half serving of honey bunches of oats contained 1.5 grams and the V-8 Fusion contained zero fat, which makes the total fat intake 10 grams.
Carbs were 75 grams.
Later I plan to work out for 30 – 60 minutes. I’ll do some dance aerobics to Britney Spears’ Gimme More. I like the beat. I imagine by the time I go to bed I should have burned about 200 calories which will reduce today’s calorie count to 300.
Yes, I know this is a bit irresponsible to be trying to survive on 300 – 500 calories per day; but I am starting to see myself when I look in the mirror instead of the stranger who has been looking back at me for some time. I’ll never be 25 again, I know, and that is not my aim. I’m not interested in having people “compliment” me on how skinny I am. I put compliment in quotes because that’s how I used to look at it when people would talk about how extremely thin I was when I was starving to keep my weight at 90 – 100 pounds. I used to feel like I was something special. I understand now that I had a problem, and I’ll admit that I probably still do have some body image issues; but nothing quite like I did before gaining weight and joining in the struggle to keep it off. Although I was always in the struggle to keep it off because that’s the whole point of starving to be thin.