Sunday morning tea and crumpets

Good Sunday morning.  I am feeling rested for the first in quite some time. I actually slept until 8AM, and I believe I went to bed fairly early for me as well. I wonder if my trip out with my son yesterday had anything to do with it. I’m usually lucky if I manage 5 hours of sleep. Last night I managed 10! Haven’t slept 10 hours in at least 4 years that I can presently remember.

I’ve previously mentioned that I have agoraphobia so I hardly ever leave my house. I’ve had this problem since I was 9. I used to think it started when I was 13 but I realize it started earlier than that because I’ve recalled how afraid I used to be whenever my grandmother would send me to the store (I lived with my grandmother from the age of 9 until 2 months before my 13th birthday). I used to be afraid if I had to go on an errand that  would require me to pass by certain places and people. So my fears obviously began developing as early as that.

When I was young I didn’t have the option of not going where I had to go. If I was sent on an errand I had to go on that errand; and I also had to go to school every day. People just thought I was weird or extremely shy, and no one tried to get help for me. Instead, the adults in charge of me often grew irritated and would beat me, while outside people mocked and teased me for being a bit doltish.

Anyway, I probably shouldn’t continue with this train of thought because it’s going to ruin the good mood I’m experiencing right now and I want to try to keep this good feeling going for a while. So enough of that.

It’s Sunday morning. I’ve had my bath (well, it was a shower rather than a bath). I’m going to have a cup of tea in a moment; but I don’t have any crumpets so it will be tea and something else. I’ll follow that with some tidying up at some point. The table behind me is cluttered and I want to try to clean it; but I’ll probably put in a few hours of work before I get around to that. My sites are my business right now. That’s what I’m down to. They are the only things left out of which I can possibly bring any money for now so I have to upkeep them, get them to be worth something so I can sell them.

In the meantime, I need to get serious about my novel writing. That has been my real passion since I was eleven and my dream since I was 18. I was to be a best-selling novelist by now. I keep meaning to try work on the rewriting of the novels I wrote from the ages of 18 – 25. I finished several novels then but none were really good enough to be published. I did try to get them published but they were rejected. I still have them sitting around and believe the stories are interesting enough; but the novels need to be completely rewritten. Maybe today I’ll make a firm decision about which novel to rewrite first and get to working on revising the plot for a rewrite.

I want to do a travel post about Greece as well because I had a dream last night that I went to Greece and my husband and I got into a little trouble because we broke an important stone that was decorating the landscape of a beach we’d visited. I had some pretty bizarre dreams last night but I prefer bizarre dreams to depressing dreams and I usually have depressing dreams. I’ve realized there’s a connection to how I feel when I wake up and what I was dreaming just before I woke up. I also tend to believe that when I dream about tsunamis in any capacity it means my financial situation will be changing for the better. I don’t know where that idea took shape but I’ve believed it for years. I has a dream about a tsunami last night so we’ll see. I did finish yesterday with $11.79 in earnings, which is a fortune compared to my $0.07 cents the previous day.

Hope you have a great Sunday.

Image: tea, crumpets & jam by im watching the stars via Flickr

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