Dear diary, I haven’t made an entry in a while. I suppose it’s because I don’t see the point. I’m 37. Why does a 37 year old woman need a diary. A 37-year old woman is supposed to have a journal. Diaries are for little girls. Besides, writing in a diary is like speaking to [...]

You can’t be everything. In fact you can’t be other than you are. That’s what I’m telling myself right now as I look at paintings by artist Michelle Torrez.
It’s been a long day but mostly positive. I won’t reduce it to a measure of how much money I made or didn’t make. I’ve accomplished a [...]

Dear diary, so far today I’ve made 97 cents. Just 3 cents more and I’ll be in the big leagues. I’ll have made a whole dollar. Yay! Yesterday I made thirty-five cents and the day before that I made fifty-four cents. If this keeps up I’ll be a millionaire by the time I’m, oh, say [...]

I am frustrated and I figure it’s a good time for a “dear diary” post since I haven’t done one in a while. I’m not even going to tell you what my situation is with forex trading. I’ll go ahead and spit out the BS that I need to tell myself because I refuse to [...]

Just having a little fun today. Don’t want to think about forex trading or anything related to trying to make money. I’ve been hearing about second life for years. Today I decided to give it a test drive just for something to do to distract myself from my usual thoughts. I’ve created a character and [...]

Yesterday I made 2 cents in total earnings from my business and lost $10 trading forex. I got to a point where I couldn’t hold in my negative self-deprecating thoughts any longer. I started calling myself a worthless loser. I didn’t wake up in much better spirits today.
Just now I stumbled across a blog titled [...]

Someone asked me an interesting question yesterday. The question: “What is it you really want? To be rich or to be happy?” I started to answer but they shushed and told me not to answer straight away, to sleep on the question and then answer it soon after waking up from sleep in the morning. [...]

Dear diary it has been a while, but you know how it is with me…. At the moment I am a bit upset. I’ve lost $60 today trading forex. I just keep stacking up the losses. Today’s loss brings my official loss since I started trading to 1,487.38. It’s depressing. I know what you think. [...]

Imagine not being able to come up with $235 to get your bank account out of the deficit? Why would you prefer to be poor? No one would prefer to be poor. It’s depressing being poor. My first words to myself most mornings when I wake up are “you can’t kill yourself”. The significance of [...]

Go to sleep depressed about money. Wake up depressed about money. Go through the day depressed about money. Forever and a day thinking about ways to make  money. Can’t be happy for lack of financial security. SO GET A JOB!! But it’s not even the money that’s the problem. The lack of money creates some [...]